Results Day was terrifying. I got a C and spent the morning feeling so angry with myself, but then I pulled myself together and went into town to get a haircut and began to feel marginally better. When my dad picked me up he told me the news about the terrorist attack unfolding in Barcelona and it really put everything into perspective. There was me moping around over a perfectly good pass grade while people had been brutally murdered.
I spent a lot of the day after that watching the BBC news and recognised the little shops that I went to on a school trip when I was 14. One girl bought a penis shaped lollipop and 14 year old me thought it was the funniest thing ever. It’s just so bizarre how a place I once stood and laughed became the place of someone’s death.
So yeah, while I’m not overly happy about my AS result it’s not the end of the world. I’m going to get one paper remarked and resit another which will hopefully bring me up to a B, maybe an A if I’m really lucky. I said that I wouldn’t do A2 if I got a C or below but I’m not so sure now because I don’t want to give my Spanish studies. I’ve studied Spanish for 6 years now and this is the first real setback but for a girl who only had 2hr30min of class each week and was buried in assignments for my other course the week of my AS exams it’s probably a miracle that I passed.