2016 in Review 

If I’m completely selfish and ignore all of the political instability and celebrity deaths in 2016, I don’t really know how I would describe it. I suppose that there were highs and lows but it was a pretty big year for me nonetheless: I turned 16, got my GCSEs and got my eyebrows threaded for the first time (life-changing).

The first half was pretty shit for me, between a death in the family and GCSEs it felt like I couldn’t breath but after June things began to look up. I went on a voyage funded by the Atlantic Youth Trust which was a surreal experience (in a good way!) . I started college, was cast in a show and made some amazing friends. I don’t feel so lonely these days and I know how incrediby lucky I am to have met everyone in 2016! I could think all day about the bad things that happened but there’s no need for that type of negativity.

Hopefully thing will continue to go up in 2017 and I wish everyone happiness in the new year 

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Carrie Fisher Drowned in Moonlight, Strangled by Her Bra

Carrie Fisher Wikipedia
1956-2016

I must admit that I have never fully watched any of the original Star Wars films however recently as I became familiar with her through The Force Awakens and Rogue One and various chatshows I was impressed by her razor sharp with and honesty about her battles with bipolar disorder and alcoholism. It is therefore only fitting to remember Miss Fisher as she wanted to be remembered: drowned in moonlight, strangled by her own bra. 

A brilliant actress gone too soon, rest easy princess.

Skiing 

I’ve always wanted to go skiing but I’ve never had the chance. Now I’m watching social media as my former classmates get to go skiing. Don’t get me wrong – I hope they have lots of fun – but I can’t help but be a wee bit jealous. 

Eh, I suppose I better start saving; I’m sure I’ll get the opportunity to go in the future. Sure, with my auntie’s past employer paid for employees to go skiing! I need to work for a company like that!

I don’t really know where to start 

I have Dysthymia (chronic depression) and GAD (General Anxiety Disorder). That’s a fact. I can’t change it but I can control it to a certain extent with medication. However sometimes it develops into a major depressive episode which I can’t control – I end up becoming delusional, insomniac and extremely paranoid. I don’t want anyone to feel bad for me – I just want everyone to understand me

Despite all this I’m just a normal person. I feel like sometimes people are just too quick to sideline me as a lunatic. Maybe I am and I just haven’t realised yet but there are ways to help me:

  • Say hello. When you see me a simple acknowledgement can convince that you’re not ignoring me
  • Tell me to stop. If you think I’m obsessing over something or being mean just say so – I hate the thought of myself upsetting anyone else
  • Don’t be afraid to invite me to things. I love being invited places, even if it’s just a last minute plan
  • Remind me. When such negative thoughts are swirling around your head it’s tough to remember everything 
  • Remember that I’m just a 16 year old girl. Sometimes I feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders and pressures that none of my peers have. Everyone tells me that I’m mature for my age, but really I just want to be a kid

Maybe I don’t know where to start when it comes to helping myself but I know how others can help. This doesn’t just go for me but for all people suffering that you know suffering from a mental illness. In my friendship groups I’m the only one who seems to talk up about my mental illness when statistically I’m not the only one.